The head pounds. One of those not-here posts.

For some reason today I cannot stop thinking about the Humanities Project.

The beautiful Sam and I are partnering up for this as well. The Roe v. Wade Project has been really wonderful working with her and I am so glad she decided to work with me for all of next year as well. I've been doing a lot of thinking about my role as a survivor of sexual violence in the project. The project's focus is sexual violence awareness through the arts. I often wonder how I would fit in the project if it were not a "personal" thing to me. It's personal for Sam too, personal in different ways. I'm sure I would have the same amounts of compassion and I'm sure my drive to see the end of sexual violence would be the same. I'm not making sense. I received a copy of Ellen Bass and Laura Davis' The Courage to Heal Friday in the mail. We are using it as a resource for the project but I've done some personal interest reading as well.

Sam and I have so much work to do this week for the Roe v. Wade Project. While it is incredibly exciting, it also has a certain level of expectation and stress involved.

I'm feeling slightly overwhelmed and am very relieved to know that I do not have school next week. It is going to be nice, to have time to breathe and think and practice and think and write and memorize and read.

The throat hurts, allergies.

Church this morning was beautiful.

Secret # 2, 158, 924:

Whenever I see women outside of abortion clinics with scary pro-life signs, I imagine someone from across the street calling the fire department and I imagine their pro-life signs being sprayed violently. I consider myself a fairly peaceful person and when I see women trying to betray their very right to choose with disturbing anti-choice signs, I want to throw something harmless but irritating at them, give them a pie in the face.

love, jessieh

Politics again (and other things): The real McCain

It is my sincere hope that the readers of this blog feel welcomed and

I am going to try to be just as personal as I have been political recently.

It's really one of the few things I am able to quickly write about because it usually is text copied from another source. I have been extremely busy. We get assigned Spring Scenes on Friday. I had therapy today. It was most certainly unpleasant. I don't feel good. My head hurts.

Three good things about today:

1.) It's Justina's birthday. She is a my Studio-mate.

2.) I finished reading At the Colored Museum

3.) My dear friend Artconstellation has drawn a beautiful picture of her magical hunk of kitty cat goodness.

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From NARAL pro-choice America:

The REAL John McCain is not the "moderate maverick" the pundits like to swoon over. The REAL McCain has spent the last 25 years doing everything in his power to roll back the reproductive rights we've fought so hard to protect.

If elected president, he has pledged to be the anti-choice movement's most faithful ally, carrying their water and enacting their dangerous agenda: "If I am fortunate enough to be elected as the next President of the United States, I pledge to you to be a loyal and unswerving friend of the right to life movement." [Statement by Sen. McCain read by Sen. Sam Brownback at the March for Life in Washington, DC, January 22, 2008.]

NONE OF THE ABOVE BOTHERED ME AS MUCH AS THIS DID:

"John McCain: I do not support Roe v. Wade. I think it should be overturned." [N.Y. Times, February 24, 2007.]

-We cannot go back to the days before Roe v. Wade. -

www.hillaryclinton.com

or

www.barackobama.com

love, jessieh

Tiptoe

"Tiptoeing through the used condoms strewn on the piers off the west side highway

sunset behind the skyline of jersey

walking towards the water

with a fetus holding court in my gut

my body highjacked

my tits swollen

I'm sore

the river has more colors at sunset than my sock drawer ever dreamed of

I could wake up screaming sometimes

but I don't

I could step off the end of this pier

but I've got stuff* to do

and I've an appointment on tuesday

to shed uninvited blood and tissue

I'll miss you I say to the river

to the waterto the son or

daughter I thought better of

I could fall in love with jersey at sunset

but I leave

the view to the rats

and tiptoe back"

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"I build each one of my songs out of glass so you can see me inside of them I suppose or you could just leave the image of me in the backround, I guess and watch your own reflection super imposed"

-Ani DiFranco

Abortion Project, Dance Performance, and Family Time

We finished the rough draft of the Roe v. Wade project, meaning we finished our One Act Play on the History of Abortion in the United States. I am very very excited. It is finished. I have two Shakespeare pieces to memorize by Tuesday. I'm nervous about this. I spent the weekend with Mere and my twins which was really really exciting. I feel like it has been forever since our last time together.

love, jessieh

PS: We went to the Winter Dance Performance on Thursday night. It was incredibly impressive. The pictures in this post is a result from that. They were taken by Photographer Emery Watch.