Fairytales for Children (well sort of)

Is fairytale a compound? Is compound even a word? Everything today and tomorrow and yesterday is feeling the way it feels when I literally grab a place on the ceiling to stare at and chant, "this is not happening" over and over again until whatever it is that is not happening ends. So much so that when I typed tomorrow, I was thinking of yesterday and when I typed yesterday I was thinking of tomorrow. I am tired. Exhausted, frankly and I feel like I have my monologues memorized, but not worked. When I work them, they feel as if they have already been worked and worked and don't want to be worked anymore. I am thanking God for everything wonderful that is happening. I am thanking God for everything not wonderful that is happening. I thank God for both the good and the awful of wonderful, and trust us, there are both goods and awfuls of wonderful. No one is answering the telephone. No one I am calling is answering their phones. I need you to answer your phone. Are you alive? The feet hurt except they don't belong so they can't hurt, but they do. I, plural, am a contradiction. Barnes and Noble doesn't sale Old's The Gold Cell. Bah, so guess what we do? We buy Sexton, because that's more than healthy and everything. Had that dream again last night. The one we had all week in the pink bedroom. Do you understand the process of being baptized? Yes. Yes. I do. And in Target we bump into three other students, if you count Ms.Hepburn who we didn't bump into. And I think: Where is the poetry? What are we, singular, doing? At the bank the woman asked, "So what are you? A dancer? An Artist?" and you choked and said, "Oh. I'm an actress." and it feels like Latin or something foreign on the tongue near saying, "Oh. I'm Female." or "I'm Caucasian" without the capitol letters. Vivian's husband joked about Twinkle Toes and we could have laughed too. It was a wonderful time of prayer and in the end everything was said to begin with.

love, we the people

"And I will give them a heart to know me, that I am the Lord: and they shall be my people, and I will be their God: for they shall return unto me with their whole heart. "

-Jeremiah 24:7

PS: Thank you Meriluni

I don't know these speakers.

A bad game of Jeopardy

"and down by the river the fisherman try and weep for the women, as stones, thrown like ships into the sea."

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"We are all good people, or at least we are born that way. I don't believe anyone is born with a 'badness' about them. I believe good people make bad choices, and thereby become subject to a certain amount of 'badness'. Stealing someone's parking spot is a level 0.000025 badness while raping a child, is somewhere near a level 989,984,328,978,999,973,309,799,845,759,847,213.98 badness. I think my accumulated level of 'badness' is somewhere between a 20-30 on the badness scale and these numbers mostly involve self-inflicted harm. "

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"I know I am probably driving you insane with this 'oh my goodness we have got to get ready. we're late, we're late, Alice in wonderland' planning business but when you get this comment would you please give me a call. I hate leaving voice mails on telephones or I would have called you and I personally feel like I have called you too many times today, even though I've only called you once. So, because I am neurotic and have evidently inherited by Grandmother's OCD by way of genetics: Please call me. I have a few more questions."

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"For a fleeting moment on Saturday, I considered killing myself. Be not concerned."

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"Dad, they call it 'kidnapping' because it is kidnapping."

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love, jessieh

Overheard in DC

Be glad you didn't hear this conversation. Be more glad that you weren't a part of it.

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Woman A: How's that apple fritter?

Woman B: It's a bulimic's dream.

Woman A: What about the 'class' factor?

Woman B: When you are barfing up your food, there is no class factor. Once that puke is in the hair, it doesn't matter how sophisticated you thought you were.

Woman A: That's why I just don't eat.

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