Thank You Meriluni

and it's 17 days before I leave,

and I don't have my two monologues memorized,

and I don't have "Letters to a Young Poet" fully read

and I am on here blogging.What an Idiot I am.

This is a personal statement.

I have diet coke.

I am making the full all-out "to pack" list now.

I will be with my twins tommorow and I have therapy.

I have a workout on Thursday with my nazi Sam and the lovely Ms.Hepburn,

and GUESS WHAT! After we monologue for awhile, guess what we are going to do?

We are going to sit on our little white, tired, becoming-muscular butts

and watch HAPPY ENDINGS...

because the ending had better be happy.

I'm off to clean.

and read.

and monologue.

this is craziness with Ani DiFranco, Tori Amos, and Sharon Olds tagging along.

love, jessieh

Focus

the bad:

1. Children all over this free country are being tortured.

2. I am an idiot, therefore, I have misplaced my cellphone and I forgot to wear sunscreen today.

3. Ms.Hepburn and I are not on the same floor for Governor's School.

4. I will more than likely not be able to continue therapy while away at school.

5. The throat hurts.

6. I feel fat.

7. I still haven't mailed off my Governor's School forms that were due on the 13th of July. I'm not overly-concerned about missing the requested deadline. I feel bad about it but I am working on it.

8. I dreamt last night that Sharon Olds died today. To my knowledge, she didn't.

9. The stomach hurts.

the good:

1. Jesus loves everyone.

2. Ms.Hepburn likes Ani DiFranco.

3. We are going to Greenville tomorrow. This is going to be good.

4. We will get to see our Discovery Instructors and I may even tell Castor how much her class inspired me.

5. The twins survived last night with my Grandmother.

6. I went to Charleston today. It was beautiful.

7. I've lost four pounds.

8. My roomate for Governor's School is Sam Orr. She is incredible.

9. I am shaving the legs tomorrow.

10. I worked out extra long today.

11. This list, will always be longer than the previous one.

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I had nothing to do with the below:

I am, frankly, rather frustrated with the fact that every time I lose something rather insignificant; keys, cellphones, watches (that I don't wear anymore because I can't keep one), an ink pen I really liked- When I realize that the insignificant 'it' is missing, I literally and honestly think I would be better off dead and count the reasons I should (and really want to) stay alive.

This is a problem. A BIG problem.
I promise to write more soon.

love, jessieh