1.30.2007

"A ate a nasty, greasy, sloppy cheeseburger because my inner child said so..."

I wish my inner child would stick to such matters...





If only my inner child wanted something as simple as a big mac.
Sadly, my inner child hungers for more than McDonald's food establishment can offer.
love, jessieh

Vagina Day and wearing mine.

THIS IS THE IDEA FOR VAGINA DAY T-SHIRTS.


(Below is the front view, and below that is the back view)










I am wanting us to wear these shirts on February 14th in honor of V-DAY, a worldwide movement to end violence against women and children. I am wanting to wear them all day. This means I am wanting to wear a shirt with the beautiful word VAGINA pasted across my chest. I am unsure as to how this will affect my school administrators. I sincerely hope they do not view the word Vagina as obscene language and ask me to change me clothes.

I really do hope everything works out.

Not many people pay attention to what I have written on the front of my shirts any way, if they do read my shirt, they will ask one of two things...

A.) You actually wore that to school ?! or B.) Can I see the back?

Both of which will have the same reply:

OF COURSE!

For More information about this global movement to end violence log on to www.vday.org.

love, jessieh

1.27.2007

Make me Smile.

Savannah and Taylor are obsessed with the entire Japanese culture.
This is one of their favorite artists.
and it makes me happy.



The end.

1.23.2007

The word "justice" and other not so related terms.

You'll have to read the blog in it's entirety to understand it's true message.
All words were taken from the Random House Dictionary...
jus·tice /ˈdʒʌstɪs/ Pronunciation Key - Show Spelled Pronunciation[juhs-tis] Pronunciation Key - Show IPA Pronunciation
–noun 1. the quality of being just; righteousness, equitableness, or moral rightness: to uphold the justice of a cause.
2. rightfulness or lawfulness, as of a claim or title; justness of ground or reason: to complain with justice.
3. the moral principle determining just conduct.
4. conformity to this principle, as manifested in conduct; just conduct, dealing, or treatment.
5. the administering of deserved punishment or reward.
6. the maintenance or administration of what is just by law, as by judicial or other proceedings: a court of justice.
7. judgment of persons or causes by judicial process: to administer justice in a community.
8. a judicial officer; a judge or magistrate.
9. (initial capital letter) Also called Justice Department. the Department of Justice.
—Idioms10. bring to justice, to cause to come before a court for trial or to receive punishment for one's misdeeds: The rapist was not brought to justice.
11. do justice, a. to act or treat justly or fairly.
b. to appreciate properly: We must see this play again to do it justice.
c. to acquit in accordance with one's abilities or potentialities: He finally got a role in which he could do himself justice as an actor.
[Origin: 1150–1200; ME <>
vin·di·ca·tion /ˌvɪndɪˈkeɪʃən/ Pronunciation Key - Show Spelled Pronunciation[vin-di-key-shuhn] Pronunciation Key - Show IPA Pronunciation
–noun 1. the act of vindicating.
2. the state of being vindicated.
3. defense; excuse; justification: Poverty was a vindication for his thievery.
4. something that vindicates: Subsequent events were her vindication.
[Origin: 1475–85; <>
for·give·ness
/fərˈgɪvnɪs/ Pronunciation Key - Show Spelled Pronunciation[fer-giv-nis] Pronunciation Key - Show IPA Pronunciation
–noun 1. act of forgiving; state of being forgiven.
2. disposition or willingness to forgive.
[Origin: bef. 900; ME forgifenesse, OE forgifennys. See forgive, -ness]
for·give /fərˈgɪv/ Pronunciation Key - Show Spelled Pronunciation[fer-giv] Pronunciation Key - Show IPA Pronunciation verb, -gave, -giv·en, -giv·ing.
–verb (used with object) 1. to grant pardon for or remission of (an offense, debt, etc.); absolve.
2. to give up all claim on account of; remit (a debt, obligation, etc.).
3. to grant pardon to (a person).
4. to cease to feel resentment against: to forgive one's enemies.
5. to cancel an indebtedness or liability of: to forgive the interest owed on a loan.
–verb (used without object) 6. to pardon (<---oh. that indeed, is very interesting) an offense or an offender.
[Origin: bef. 900; for- + give; r. ME foryiven, OE forgiefan]
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now.
for the last word.
let us see how the words correlate.
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sexual abuse
–noun rape, sexual assault, or sexual molestation.

(Also called sex abuse. )



hmmmm.... There isn't even an orgin for that one.
We can define justice. We can define vindication. We can define forgiveness even.
But what seems to happen to sexual abuse? I think we've fallen short.

Where's the rest of it?
Where's the part about those who are sexually abused?
The other definitions seemed to cover the word adequately.
Not the last one.
Where's the part about :

Psychological problems:

Fears, panic attacks, sleeping problems, nightmares, irritability, outbursts of anger and sudden shock reactions when being touched.

Little confidence, and self-respect and respect for one's own body may change.

Behavior that harms the body: addiction to alcohol and other substances, excessive work or sports, depression, self-destruction and prostitution.

Social problems:

Have little confidence in other people.

Fear of loss of control in relationships.

Sexual problem:

While making love problems often occur. The partner may be confused by a certain remark, touch or behavior that brings back memories of the abuse.

Patients sometimes don't want to make love at all anymore or make love less.

Sexual relation problems may occur, together whit pain while making love, not wanting to make love and problems in getting aroused. Problems with the orgasm and coming also occur.

Physical complaints:

Abdominal pain, pain while making love, menstrual pain, intestinal complaints, stomach ache, nausea, headache, back pain, painful shoulders, in short all kinds of chronic pain may occur. The pain is often inexplicable.

Eating disorders often occur in sexually abused people. More.

When the patients, in reaction to a harmful event, disordered for more than a month in such a way that they can't go to school, can't work, isolate themselves or experience other negative consequences, one can talk about a post traumatic stress syndrome . This disorder originates in reaction to a very harmful event and has three characteristic symptoms:

Denial and repression
alternating with re-experiencing,
and they are always over irritated.
Denial and repression ; they deny or repress the harmful event(s): they don't want to talk about or avoid certain situations. At an older age, memory of sexual abuse is often completely suppressed, but can sometimes be recovered in psychotherapy.

It is, however, difficult to determine if such recovered memories are memories of real experiences of memories of dreams or imagined events. This difficulty can be a problem if you want to prosecute the abuser, but it is not a problem for treatment using modern psychotherapeutic methods.

Re-experiencing ; they experience the event(s) again; unintentionally they are confronted with memories of the abuse, for example through nightmares, sudden memories or unexplainable physical problems.

Over irritation ; they are easily affected, hot-tempered, jumpy, excessively alert and don't fall asleep easily.

etc. etc. etc. etc.
source:http://web4health.info/en/answers/sex-abuse-effects.htm

What if under the definition of sexual abuse, rape, molestation...what if instead of a basic word, word, word definition we listed in detail everything- Gave examples as the other words did? What if beside the definition we had the different types, just as the other words did?
Perhaps if we could each share our own definition of the word. Then maybe society could share in these definitions.
Maybe.


That's all.
Just food for thought.

Take Care.
love, jessieh

1.20.2007

HBO Documentary: THIN

Watch in Order...












Watch in order. Enjoy

1.06.2007

Ms.Hepburn's sweet 16 and the word "victim".

Ms.Hepburn turns 16 tomorrow. MyFakaFitiTeRah!AhUmpaEhAhUmpaEh!
I love her.
Happy Birthday.

For my creative writing class I was inspired by the word "media"...
I've been writing and it has turned into my association with the word media and the word victim.

I've been writing at waffle house where my lovely waitress refills the diet coke in the glass more than 47 times and I lose count. Stay posted.

love, jessieh

1.04.2007

How I feel about Child rapists.

I've tried to express my anger and hatred toward rape but can not find words in the English language. Rape, in every way is evil in its most devastating form. Child rape (I'm not saying that it is worse than any other rape, or that one kind of rape is different than another, do not be mislead) is just something I have yet to see as anything other than evil in its most disgusting form, and because I can not find words and feel the need to share my feelings I have borrowed lyrics from The Cranberries...

"Fee Fi Fo" by The Cranberries.

Fee fi fo she smells his body
She smells his body
And it makes her sick to her mind
He has got so much to answer for
To answer for, To ruin a child's mind

How could you touch something
So innocent and pure?
Obscure
How could you get satisfaction
From the body of a child?
You're vile, sick.

It's true what people say
God protect the ones who help themselves
In their own way
It's true what people say
God protect the ones who help themselves
In their own way

He was sitting in her bedroom
In her bedroom
And now what should she do?
She's got so much insecurity
And his impurity It was a gathering gloom

How could you touch something
So innocent and pure?
Obscure
How could you get satisfaction
From the body of a child?
You're a vile, sick. Die.

It's true what people say
God protect the ones who help themselves
In their own way
And I often wondered to myself:
Who protects the ones who can't protect themselves?

It's true what people say
God protect the ones who help themselves
In their own way
And I often wondered to myself:
Who protects the ones who can't protect themselves?

the end.
One day, when I legally and emotionally have my own liberties, I will express in words my feelings toward child rapists in words. My words.

love, jessieh

1.01.2007

About Eating Disorders and the Media

Just a little effort to create awareness.
Happy New Year.