probably wondering where we've been

I am trying not to document much of the "Oh, Jessieh is going to college next year" information here and until I am sure which school I am going to I do not want to write about college at all and to be quite frank college decisions and admissions things are taking up about 68% of my life right now, the other approximate 32% is consumed by the following:

• The Comedy of Errors, which opens on Shakespeare's birthday; April 23rd.
• Directing a scene-study from David Rabe's In the Boom Boom Room
• Directing a reading of a play I wrote called Page Numbers as a continuation to our (Sam and I) Humanities Project and as a benefit reading for RAINN
• Directing a reading of A Memory, A Monologue, A Rant and A Prayer as a benefit reading for V-DAY. Both Page Numbers and MMRP will be presented on the same night.
• Thinking about going to see Jenny on May 24th in Washington DC and almost jumping out of my skin with excitement.
• Being thrilled for her about the completion of the wall-drawing project.
• Trying to both win my school's science fair with my project on Dissociative Experiences and the Artistic Temperament and make straight As my last 9 weeks of school. I want to end with a bang!
• The Existential Crisis and Trusting In God.
• (Trying not to think about the Holocaust.)
• Struggling with food.
• Getting my beautiful little sister, Jordan (Jourdan), ready to go to prom with me in a few weeks.
• Trying to cope with the fact that my dress for Luciana in The Comedy of Errors does not have sleeves, meaning that my arms will show- which let me tell you- hasn't quite happened in a public manner in what seems to be years.
• Thinking about leaving my Studio in just 7 weeks.
• Missing Patty and looking forward to his return.
• Wanting to go to Bennington so badly but knowing that money will play a huge huge role in whether or not I can.
• Needing a vehicle and a job for summer, both of which seem to get in the way of each other. I can't get a job without a reliable way to and from work and I can't get a vehicle without having money from a job. Not to mention-the unemployment rate in SC is rising with each passing moment and last I checked it was almost 11% which is terrifying considering I will be 18 with no "real" work experience and fresh out of a high school that isn't exactly a high school. The other problem is we refuse to work around food. I cannot work with food. Ideally, I would love to be a receptionist or a book store clerk or work in a library or maybe even a department store but not food.

There is more, of course, and I will write more soon, very soon. The College decision will have to be made by May 1st.

love, jessieh